Oh My Fucking God.

I am so fucking sick of Johnny Come Latelys.

I'm all for discovering new things. That is fine. But don't fucking act like you know everything about it. Don't fake your love for it. If it doesn't come naturally LEAVE IT.

I think I'm having an identity crisis.

I feel like everything I know is being stolen and I am unable to claim it back. I'm clutching at straws because every time I find something that is my own, someone takes it to be theirs. I feel like saying to them "I'm pretty sure that's mine..." instead I say "Oh no, that's cool, you keep it."

Fuck.

Mid-life crisis' aren't supposed to be happening yet.

Boys...

Boys are just stupid.

Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

I mean, why not just tell me how you feel, instead of fucking me around and not talking to me one day and then being all over me the next.

And the stupid thing is I don't even like him.

GAH!

It's like he has this power over me.

I hate it.

Just saying...

I'm just gunna put it out there.

I have had an awesome day.

It started off with a 9am class, which I am never thrilled about, but a lot of my friends are in it, so it's nice to be there with them. Plus we were reading this interesting play, so that was fun.

I then had another class, which was the bomb. We did hot seating, which is where you develop a character then sit in front of the class and they ask you questions while you remain in character.

After class Siobhan, Kim, Chris and Felix came back to mine where we made homemade pizza and garlic bread. Unfortunately we burnt the bread, but still good.

We also revealed to one of them that a girl we used to have class with was a pornstar. The reaction was hilarious when we showed him the pictures.

Then Kim, Siobhan and I went to our burlesque class, where my thighs got the workout of a lifetime.

And now I am home.

Tired.

Might actually sleep before midnight.

Today was a win.

More Awkwardness...

Why have the past couple of days been so awkward?

Conversation with my Mother.

Me: "So yeah, since I can't go tonight, so Zac said I should spend the weekend with him in Warragal, coz he's having like a birthday dinner thing."

Mum: "Oh. So is he cracking on?"

Me: "What?"

Mum: "Is he cracking on to you?"

Me: "NO! Mum, where did you get that from?"

Mum: "Well I thought that that would be why he wants you there."

Me: "..."

Mum: "Well, can you blame me for thinking that?"

Me: "Can we change the subject?... Please?"

Mum: "So what will you do in Warragal?"

Me: "Have dinner."

Mum: "Where will you sleep?"

Me: "In a bed."

Mum: "Where will the bed be?"

Me: "I don't know. I'm guessing at Zac's."

Mum: "Zac's hey?"

Me: "I'm going now Mum..."

And now for something completely different...

I did a show today.

At first I was on the huge high. In fact, I have been on one all day. Even through the awkwardness. Even during rehearsal for another show. I felt great. Everything was awesome. Casa was the bomb.

But now...

I don't know. I feel this emptiness. Like a there's something missing. Something I have forgotten. I feel lost, like a tiny imperfection on the water.

Ahahahahhahaha... No.

I think I have had one of the most awkward days ever.

Everything, just, awkward.

I mean, flattering, but awkward.

And then, what do you do in these awkward situations?

In my case it seems to be say something inappropriate and make it worse.

Yep. Awkward.

Spelling

This is really starting to piss me off.

These people on facebook who can't spell or wRiTe LyK dIs... surely you have something better to do.

A girl just posted a status and spelt "can't" with an "r".

Does she really think it is spelt with an "R" or is she stupid.

Oh sorry... it was spelt like this "carnt"

So it was grammatically incorrect as well.

Now, I know everyone makes mistakes, I know I do... BUT these people are repeat offenders.

Another post "Nite everyone"

DO THEY KNOW IT'S SPELT NIGHT???

The shortening of it is not going to fasten your typing. If you take out the "e" and put back in the "g" and "h" you've only had to add one extra letter from "nite".

Don't even get me started on this post:

"mee too, ii hatee wehhn iim not aloudd too do sumthiink whiich iis all tha tiime, cant do anyythiink wiithout gettiiing skiitzedd at lol"

WHAT IS WITH ALL THE EXTRA LETTERS???

I don't get it.

Wow. Now I sound really old.

Well I guess I am. I'm twenty now.

Fuck.