Not a great day...

I'm sorry for all the negative blogs... When I get sick depression generally likes to rear its ugly head.

Today has been not a great day and I'm not entirely sure why.

I haven't been sleeping too well lately, especially here in Melbourne, which is odd because I generally sleep like a log here.

So I didn't sleep too great last night, eventually falling into a deep sleep around 4am. I then woke up at 10 and decided to do my online test for Film History. Turns out he's not opening it till tomorrow... So that was a win.

Since I was up I decided to try and write some more of my Performance essay. Got it up to 1000 words. 500 left. So that was another win.

But after that, I don't know. I went a bit down hill.

I showered and went to have brunch and I thought I'd watch Ellen, coz she always makes me happy, but I don't know. Something went wrong in my mind tank and I just started bawling.

So I went back to bed and slept till about 2, but even when I woke up I still felt crummy. So I decided to read my book. That made me feel a bit better.

Then it was time to go to class. So I went... Half an hour in my back goes into spasm.

My back does spasm regularly, but not as bad as this.

So my dear friend Ewan helps me walk to the Medical Centre. I go up to the counter and say my back is spasming and could I perhaps see the doctor. She informs me there are none on duty today, which is my head is retarded anyways. So Ewan goes "Well, can she sit in here for about 15mins while I go get my car?" and this bitch of a woman goes "Well I have to leave at 5". It was about 4.55pm when we arrived.

My face kinda dropped at this point, coz I couldn't even sit inside somewhere warm and it kinda started to upset me and my eyes started to well up and so the bitch goes "Oh, well I suppose the nurse can come look at you" like it's this huge hassle for her. The nurse yells out whats the problem and bitch yells back "A student's got back spasm, but it mustn't be too bad coz she's walking"

That did it for me.

I said "Don't worry about it." and started to walk out, and then she was all "no, no, the nurse is coming now"

I told her I don't want no fucking nurse. Not one where it seems like a hassle for them to do their job.

And so I went outside and I waited for Ewan to pick me up.

And he was lovely and drove me home and walked me up my stairs and made sure I was ok.

So yeah.

Go Team.

My back's still spasming. Fucker.

Anyways, for more positive stuff perhaps check out my tumblr account:

http://www.monilala.tumblr.com/

Love you all

xxxxx