So it's official.
I am sick.
Not like in the head sick. I think we all know that, especially with my "Silver Fox" fetish.
I have a cold.
I haven't had one in ages... like I dunno... Six months... That's a long time for me.
I feel awful and I have this huge guilt hanging over my head coz I'm going to miss class tomorrow. It's only my second week and I'm missing classes. How lame am I?
Anyway... I've been watching a lot of Sex and the City lately and it just makes me depressed. I mean, I love the show, don't get me wrong, but I look at them all and I can't help but feel jealous.
I'm jealous of everything. The shoes, the clothes, the lifestyle, the men. Everything.
I think I find it even harder because I am single and I do not have the flow of men coming in that they do.
I know it's silly to compare life to a TV show, but it's hard not to.
And I understand that I'm not the most attractive person in the world, but jeez, I'm not hideously deformed either.
To make matters worse I just found out that a guy I used to go to school with just got married. Not that I want to get married, but this guy is a drop kick, douchebag, dickhead, prat and he could still get someone. He's not even attractive!
ARGH!
I don't think it helps that I have unrealistic expectations of men. I mean, in my head the perfect guy is a cross between Mr Darcy/ Aidan/ Edward Cullen/ Jacob Black with the looks of Robert Downey Jr. It's just stupid to expect this super man to come along.
I just get sick of being alone. Especially when you see everyone with a someone.
I feel the same way sometimes, but you can't let it get you down. It does suck being single most of the time, but just think that everything happens for a reason and one day you might find someone, or you might not. What's meant to be is meant to be.
ReplyDeleteand WHO GOT MARRIED. Do I know them?
is it that guy who used to have quite long hair and was a year above us and played the drums?
If so, I know. He's pretty unattractive, but I didn't know he was a douche <3
Yeah it was that guy. He used to do productions. He used to think he was a better drummer than the drummer from metellica. Like he really and truely used to say that.
ReplyDeleteLOL. What a.. weirdo. :\ I hate people like that.
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel better soon. I feel sick too. Like so bad. So many people are sick! <3
I know! Get better soon love xxx
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