Badass...

I wish I was badass... I really do.

But cool badass, where like everyone still likes you and doesn't think you're a complete toss bag.

Mind you, I don't think I'm mean for bad ass... For starters, I like being clean. I like the look of it though.

I think I'm more of a geek. This is not to be confused with nerd. Nothing against nerds, but I feel that nerds are overly smart. Geeks just have good general knowledge.

I discovered I was a geek in about year nine when the last instalment of Star Wars came out. We were discussing how it was quite good, but then I blurted out "yeah, but obviously the first three instalments were considerably more superior, especially considering they didn't have the CGI technology we take for granted today." Loser much?

It used to bother me that I was different in primary school. I used to get bullied... A LOT. In the end I just agreed with anything anyone said and kept my head down. I know it sounds stupid, but I've never regretted that I tried to change myself to fit in. I mean, I didn't succeed with the act, so I feel it taught me it's better to just be yourself than try to be something you're not.

When I got to high school it was like this whole other world opened up to me. I know most people say that about Uni and stuff, but I came from a very very small primary school with sorta just over 100 students, so to go to a school with over 500 was unreal.

I was so lucky with the people I met at SHS. They didn't care if I liked to quote full South Park episodes, watched The Mighty Boosh every weekend or spent most of my time talking about David Bowie. They just embraced it... or just smiled and nodded politely.

One of the best people I ever met was Leigh. He just gets me.

When we first met though, I will admit, I thought he was a tad weird, but that's what makes him so good.

I just wanted to take a minute to thank him, coz I don't think I ever do.

Well... this all got a bit serious, didn't it?

This was supposed to be a blog about Badassness...

I guess the real reason I could never be badass is because I care too much. I care what people think, I care how people feel and I care enough not to want to waste my life.

Night

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